my dedication...

Alone tonight make me feels sad. Why? I dont know... i just feel that way.

Tommorow... i will go back to my home town... Kota Marudu, Kudat... a place that i leaved long ago.

there... my ma and pa live.

a place full of memories.

memories with my siblings.

and of course mi familia.

ohh... my KM wait for me there. i will come to you.

i am not missing u... but just want to see u.

for last, please take this. i wrote it for you...

For the first time
I turning my back from you,
i saw your tears
maybe you don't want me to leave you
and i feel it
my heart feels sad
but what can i do this is my destiny
i must keep walking
step by step
i am just too far away
the sun cover me from above
smiling at me
and the wind just shake my hand
saying "welcome to the real world"
my mouth shut
but my mind still remembering you
suddenly here in this place
i realize my life is not enough without you
and i said "see you tommorow".

Time

"Between the two river shore. I will walking straight to you"

That is a beautiful word to say to a girl. LOL. Well, I still have no idea how to start to write things that playing inside my skull right now. I don't know since when i was start passionate about Blog and Blogging! Wahh!!

Whatever it is, this is the field where I can express something naughty, stupid or something important. It is like a diary to me (or maybe to you too).

I was thinking that "every man has today, yesterday and tommorow". And; every events that ; was, still and will be happened to every one of us will become History. History of our life. History will become Legend. And; Legend will become Myth.

Between the History and me (or you) there is Time; that will define our past and future. "Time is like Gold!" or some Muslims scholars synonymous it like "a sword". But, folks at my Kampung (Village) said that "Masa itu Time". LOL.

For now, I was wondering that Time is really important in every corner of my (our) life. Why? Because I said so!! LOL. Sorry guys, kidding is part of my life.

So, don't you ever think that next year is still far away. Let me bring you a story about Imam Al-Ghazali R.A;

"One day Imam al-Ghazali was gathered all of his students. And; he asking the student a question about "thing that so far away from us", and some of his student answered moon, sun, China etc. Imam al-Ghazali said, "No. Thing that so far away from us is "PAST". And; he ask again about "thing that nearer to us", and his student pointing their friend beside. So, Imam al-Ghazali said, "No. "Death"."

Well, according to that story I will say that "Lets do something meaningful before the nearer come. Respect our neighbor, feed for the orphans, and most important is Du'a and Salah consistently (istiqamah).

Surah Al-Asr (The Time)

1. By Al-'Asr (the time).

2. Verily! Man is in loss,

3. Except those who believe (in Islâmic Monotheism) and do righteous good deeds, and recommend one another to the truth (i.e. order one another to perform all kinds of good deeds (Al-Ma'rûf)which Allâh has ordained, and abstain from all kinds of sins and evil deeds (Al-Munkar)which Allâh has forbidden), and recommend one another to patience (for the sufferings, harms, and injuries which one may encounter in Allâh's Cause during preaching His religion of Islâmic Monotheism or Jihâd, etc.).

My apology if my stupid words hurts you... Allah is Prefect :(

"FROM GOD WE CAME, ALONE TO HIM WE WILL BE RETURN"

Cannot sleep

This is my cute little baby... His name was Baby Jamna.


I don't know why my eyes just cant close. Many things where playing in my mind right now and I don't know how to stop it.

Well, i decide to open my site and start thinking of something. Then it was coming and become this:-

Alone in this darkness | Make me feels bad | Emptiness was surrounding me | My heart feels lonely | I try to say a word but you just go away.

I told u... night isn't bad enough!! LOL

Thousand Word

GOOD VS EVIL

Night...
darkness is a true friend
without it night will never exist

Light...
synonymous with the sun
without it life will die

between two of them
there is evil and good

someone stood at night
facing The One
bow and prostrate

while others
sleeping like the baby
dreaming and snoring

where am i?
standing
looking
and waiting

O... GOD
help me!

++++++++++++++++++++++++++

THE JUNCTIONS

Walking alone
river shore
trees green
brown rocks
sometimes dark
at the end
facing junctions
where must I go?
Left
Right
?????????

+++++++++++++++++++++++

THE LAST WORD

Every man
have yesterday,
today and tomorrow
let the next generation to decide
for me I live long enough in my hangmen

From GOD we came
Alone to Him we will be return

++++++++++ [END] ++++++++++

Pintu...

Aku tidak sedar sudah berapa lama aku duduk terpaku di hadapan pintu itu. Menanti untuk dibuka memang sesuatu yang memenatkan. Ditambah lagi dengan pelbagai karenah pemiliknya yang kadangkala sukar untuk aku fahami.

Sudah beberapa kali aku cuba untuk mengetuknya. Merayu dan terus merayu. Malang bagiku pemilik pintu itu masih lagi tidak mahu menerima kehadiranku.

Pernah suatu ketika dulu aku cuba untuk memberinya untaian kata-kata indah dan manis. Tetapi dengan tiba-tiba dia menutup pintu serapatnya. Masih aku bingung memikirkannya.

Kini aku masih terus menunggu di hadapan pintu itu. Entah bila akan terbuka kembali.

Dalam masa yang sama, insan-insan lain pula yang cuba untuk mengetuk pintuku. Mereka tidak meminta dan merayu. Aku faham itu.

Tetapi kejahilanku membuat aku terus menunggu akan pemilik pintu itu untuk memberiku masuk. Rindu masih di jiwa.

my diary 4

Jumaat menjelma lagi... aku harapkan jumaat ini akan mendatangkan seribu satu kebaikan buat diriku.

wahai Tuhanku...
ampunilah dosa hambaMu yang hina ini
berkatilah hidupku
rahmatilah kedua ibubapaku
perliharalah aqidah dan iman seluruh umat Islam
selamatkan hamba-hambaMu yang tertindas diseluruh dunia
samada di Palestin, Iraq, Afghanistan dan lain-lain

AMIN, YA RABBAL ALAMIN

My Diary 3

Rancangan masa hadapan?

1. Bertaubat kepada ALLAH dan istiqamah dalam beramal dan beribadat.
2. Ambil kelas Bahasa Inggeris A level (IELTS atau TOEFL).
3. Aku punya impian untuk melanjutkan pelajaran ke UK.
4. Berkahwin.

Sekian...

Kata hatiku 1

Rindu
Hadirmu disaat ini
menyiksa jiwa

bayangannya
hadir di mana-mana
seolah menghukum
jasad yang fana

kemesraan yang hanya mimpi
seolah hadir dan bermain di ruangan mata
membuat insan bernama aku
pasrah dalam ketentuan-Nya

my diary 2

baru balik dari Outstation.... pengkalan hulu, satu perjalanan yang jauh. aku ingin menciptakan satu sajak buat mu...

letakmu di hulu sana,
dengan bersempadankan Betong yang indah,
pendudukmu semua ramah tamah,
wajahmu jauh dari kesibukan kota,
kroh nama misterimu,
akan aku berkunjung lagi,
tunggulah aku...

Ronijamawod Al-Sabah.